"Admist the mists and coldest frosts,
With barest wrists and stoutest boasts,
He thrusts his fist against the posts,
And still insists he sees the ghosts."

I went visiting blogs and...why is everyone upset and in the nostalgic mood? Even myself.

Anyways. I just got back my results last saturday via internet. Technology seriously rules the world sia- more specifically, the World Wide Web. Well, I wasn't really sure what to expect but...oh I just shan't go into details now larh...what with my JC peeps telling me how they fail this sub and that sub...But it was better than I expected. Well...the subjects I thought I would fail, I passed seriously well. And the subjects I thought I would pass, I passed...not so well. But still, it ain't a borderline pass (which is D) so that's good I guess.

CAN YOU BELIEVE I AM WORKING NOW????No, I can't believe it myself. But then, I wasn't given a choice man. My mum just doesn't take 'no' for an answer 'cause she's tired of seeing me on the computer 24/7. So what can I do? Just go lorh. Turns out better than I thought since I'm working under my dad and sorting out his, uh, company's accounts. At least I get to put microecons and excel lessons to the practice, so it wasn't wasted. :D

And besides, if I make mistakes or become super blur in the midst of it all, there's no one to see that embarrassing moment.

But it's just soooo lonely there. No one to talk to- well except for my dad. And occasionally Uncle Albert who helps ship the things from the airport to the storage but we just...smile at each other. At least it wasn't as bad as when my uncle and I were out together and one of his friends smiled at us and said, "your daughter arh? You two look so alike, both as dark as the other."

o_O

Yeah. So...history is repeating itself once more. I just hope I don't fall for it again. I seriously hope, it was bad enough the other time, no need to experience the same thing twice.

//I thought you were...well, you are a great friend of mine. Honestly. I like the fact that you're calm, you're collective, you're a gentleman and...well, you challenge me alot. And I can openly tell everyone I cherish our friendship even though we knew each other for...a day. But you know what? You're just like her. Absolutely just like her. Your words echo hers, your behaviour, your actions. I never noticed it until I talked to you again- with a clearer mind. I wondered...I really wondered, do coincidences exist? Your approaches are not subtle to me, I may sound 15 years old but I'm not a fool, even if I get scammed easily. Maybe I should tell you bluntly I'm not interested in you and I'm not ready to get into it at this age while I'm studying. But what would you do? Continue the way you act? Avoid me? You're a nice person, I can't bring myself to say it in your face. I've seen what my words do to people and I really don't want to repeat that mistake. But hello, you're not over your ex and you're trying to get attached? Who are you cheating? Stop drowning yourself in self-pity, I'm all stretched out.//

I just realise my vacation break ends on first week of November...shattered my miserable dream.

Think I'm gaining weight. (O.o) NOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Alrights. No fear! Will exercise more~

Should I cut my hair? But am lazy to go to the salon. Hair Salons are classified as monopolistic competition since buyers and sellers are many, goods are differentiated and they practise non-price determinants.

Besides, I don't know how I should cut it. And I'm kind of broke this month as well...T.T

Need new clothes- spring cleaning my wardrobe and donating them to charity. Hopefully.

Need books or something to occupy my time and activate my brain if not Alzeimer's Disease or Dementia might occur in the long run.

Hopefully my parents will accept that Youth Saving Plan and lift a load off my shoulders. Then I don't have to worry that I won't have enough money for overseas internship or further studies. Even vacations!

Start thinking about office wear. I will need it next year. And I need new tops to go with jeans so I'm in a more appropriate attire to go out. And clothes that are not as childlike as those I am wearing now.

Paint toenails. Helps to keep them from breaking when doing point. Not that the whole nail breaks off...but chipped nails are not nice and prevents me from wearing open-toed shoes. Which, wearing such shoes, makes me more feminine => or so some claims.

Get a life. Do not be so sian everyday or everyone else will be sian and you will start thinking that I should be sian too in order to fit in with the rest. Then you will become super sian.

Why do I sound so sian then? Because I hardly slept last night after worring so much and I woke up at 4.45 am to go to HarbourFront. Then stood in the rain, trying to cheer the runners of the Terry Fox Run on while trying not to look too untidy as the wind was blowing my hair. And 3, I think they're drunk, girls were screaming and yelling and doing strange movements (e.g. hip rotation) at us. While wearing the Terry Fox Run T-shirt.

On a side note, WK might say that he has lost a good image of me because I like to bruise his ego. This is not true- he told a classmate of mine, from SJAB and same school as him, not to compare herself and me ( bad english here...) during NCO Course because I was the leader of NC team.

Harsh words to her I think...I'm feeling guilty now...and not going for my class chalet today, tomorrow and the day after tomorrow.

And if you're wondering why I'm mentioning about this is because I need things to fill up my blog. Can't make my entry so short since I take so long to update. Please do not call WK your father or I will disown you like I have disowned one person.

This is the end of the entry. Thank you for taking your time to read the above. May you have a nice week ahead.

My prophesy has fulfilled itself!! I'm stressed!!

And how to tell? Cause when I study for F&B yesterday and I took a nap, my mind kept wondering about the differences between Mignardis, Petit Fours, Canapes and Blinis. Then I woke up in a daze, answered my own question and fell back asleep. Only to wonder which part of a beef tenderloin do Filet Mignons, Chateaubriand and filet steak come from. Then I woke up again, answered my own question and fell back asleep.

The result: headache

A few moments from now, got to run off to school for exam. And currently am wondering what clothes I should wear to school. Haiz...yet another headache there. I wish I had uniforms which you can simply manipulate to your liking. But with home clothes...quite different because it's fixed. So and so colour do not match this colour. This top doesn't match this bottom, haiz.

But thanks for the note Mei Yi! Hehe, it was the first thing I read this morning as I was trying to, um, activate my brain. Though, unlike all you three peeps (ie Mei yi, Cartan, cheryl), I don't really miss SAC. Many many things happened inside; most of which are painful and some treasurable ones. Treasurable ones: well, meeting you ppl. Shan't get too mushy here since I have a limited time to write this. Besides, ppl's attention span ain't that long either.

But SAC is a place where when I look back, I grimace. In fact, truthfully speaking, I am afraid to think back of it. I'm afraid to go back to school and I dread meeting MOST SACians. Because of, yeah, the pain. This is a new part of life where I think I'm beginning to find...well, me. Goodness, life is much more stable now than in SAC where...I feel like I was in a drama of some sort. But don't look back, and don't dwell in the past because it's over and you can't bring it back. Look forward and move on, I'm no longer who I thought I was back then. But I'm glad I could break through that because I've been miserable. And it is these miserable moments that really builds up my relationship with my friends. Or break relationships with some others. Do I regret anything? Well, I regret not being a better person back then, and not being a better leader.

But like I said, that is the past and I'm growing. Everyone is- unless you're shrinking and getting younger.

On to lighter notes: I managed to bribe my sister to train up my character for me while I mug for exams. Hehehe. What's in for her => Famous Amos Cookies.

Folks, please do not follow my example because bribing is wrong. Except in meaningless matters like games (unless your game involves life and death).